Swings and Roundabouts

"it's swings and roundabouts"  (British & Australian)

something that you say to describe a situation in which there are as many advantages as there are problems

 I am sitting here just having returned from a very good time away in California where I spent 9 days with my girlfriend Alexa. It was a much needed rest time and it was great to verbally process a lot of things that had been going on in my life and in just the transition into living and serving in Vancouver. It was much needed. I need to talk sometimes, and Alexa is a good listener. Also it was good for our relationship as it was the first time we had seen each other in 8 weeks and also I was able to meet her family and see her "life". We talked, laughed, prayed, walked, served, and loved. It was a time that I can simply describe as perfect.


The hard part was leaving. Very hard.


A lot has already happened since I have been back in Vancouver (31 hours). Stuff that will have some very big effects on my life. It was a slight shock to return and be told the news. I won't share just yet as it is other people's news that effects me and I am not sure that they have shared more yet. These things will most likely effect where I live, my finances and just how life will look in Vancouver. On first hearing, I became quite unsettled, asking questions like "so am I really meant to be in Vancouver?" I stopped to think and quickly became aware that I was letting other peoples unsettlement effect me. I know that I need to not let this be the case, just because others are feeling unsettled does not mean I should be to. I need to keep my stability. I need to make sure that I am hearing personally from God and it is not being swayed or affected by emotions around me.

I know I am where I am meant to be. I know that it is going to be a challenge to stay.

I know that God is with me.

...more detailed update to follow...